I was in the company of someone last night and today who knew it all.
🧠 I mean he knew EVERYTHING.
He had all the answers, knew how everyone was creating their own problems and more importantly, he knew how to fix the world *insert eye roll here.
Though I believe he is well-intentioned, I thought he was arrogant AF and could use a healthy dose of humility.
🤬 I was practically boiling because no matter what was being said, he had some way to tell me why I was wrong and make sure it made him look like the all-mighty, all-knowing.
For a moment, I needed to pause to get a break from his heckling and within this space of silence something inside of me asked: “Why are you so bothered by his personality?”
And THIS is why I am so in love with the work that I do.
All of the different modalities I’ve studied can really help you pause, think about feelings and go into inquiry.
I found myself questioning why I felt so repulsed with his personality and THEN part of me considered it was because I could see aspects of myself in him.
When I dug deeper, a few observations:
I too have positive intentions
I also think I’m pretty f’in smart
I get frustrated when people don’t listen to my suggestions or tips on how they could improve their lives
I don’t think I’m near as offensive as I have been in the past (or he was last night).
I THINK I have learned to balance my “know-it-all” part with my “don’t be an asshole" part.
💏 I believe it is only those closest to me who see this side of me anymore.
Most of the time those closest to us get our best AND unfortunately our worse, don't they?
I feel bad about that and after this experience….
I’d like to dive in to see
🌎 I am ready to evolve again.
🙏🏻 Times like these I am so grateful for the work that I do. I appreciate all the tools available to support those of us who want to explore all aspects of ourselves.
And The Ugly.
Another thing that is so beautiful about these tools is how they can help us uncover the not so flattering aspects of ourselves without the inner critic coming out with a vengeance or feeling like a failure.
🙇🏼♂️ After all, we are all just imperfect humans, right?
🎁 I also appreciate these, what could be "negative" traits because they are a big part of my gift.
Some of these traits are why I am able to help so many people, in so many different ways.
So, without a desire to lose the benefits of them, I can ask:
In what ways would changing benefit myself and others?
How else can I evolve so I make people feel comfortable when they speak with me?
How can I balance helping and sitting back to let people make their own decisions even if they are "mistakes"?
More importantly, how can I let go when these decisions have a direct impact on my life?
As much as I am still feeling a little agitated by the interaction, I absolutely love this opportunity to dig deeper within myself and get honest.
🤔 Who will the new version of me be after spending a few hours with someone who rubbed me the wrong way?
Shadow work, here I come….
Who wants to dig deep with me?
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